Monday, October 12, 2009

How life could be……

Life seems such a struggle at times I mean see the contrasting needs, requirements of life, for example, money definitely not the most important thing to get happiness but we want it so much, which has no bounds. They say happiness cannot be bought but still money can make us happy. We don’t want to hear from god much, when we are fine, but we do remember him a lot when in pain, even try to remember him in our whisper as he was answering, everything at times we wish to have our ways, what I guess and you may agree with it, is that we wish it not at times but everytime, everyday every hour and hours put to together to get what we want.

Our maximum wants are materialistic and the super souls say that happiness would not come from the materialistic world, the most confusing point is if materialistic world is not go na give us what would enrich our lives, which help to find the moksha in life, why are we running or rather taught to run for the materialistic gains only, now here is more of the confusion, later on the super soul does not end saying only that, but also stating that we should have both of it to live into this materialistic world, wait a minute you had told me that before, me started running for golden lining and now when me on the path to earn the golden lining, you telling me that I should have also gone for personal front as well which is definitely immeasurable, so we don’t even know how much to go ahead, but now it is late. I have lost all my family suppers to meeting and agreements and now everything I have is meetings and people to greet n meet for work and my work and their work it is all about money and work, the super souls have put me into a mess. Now can I ask you a question does blaming anybody(including the super souls) can get you back that time? That love? That life which you have already lived? Think about it.

I can bet on this the answer is NO and it would always be a no, not because you wanted it this way but because you cannot do a thing about it. (Oh but I have already done that and at the top of it, you telling I cant undo it, anything of it how thoughtful !)

Well no matter what you say, what you think, what you do, you cannot turn back time and your mistakes. Then what? There is a last door that you can look forward for and that is start taking responsibility for every act that you have done, start taking the responsibility not only for the good that you have done, but also the bad that you might have committed knowingly or unknowingly it does not matter( yes it does not matter you have done it you need to be responsible for it) is this all about making me sad? no it is about that we stop complaining and the life would make you feel a bit better, a bit more productive and a bit more meaningful cause meaning to our life is all that we are here for and we need to make the most of it, so try to stop complaining start taking initiative to our deeds, even if end that is inevitable only seems to be a solution do it with best note as it could be.

Lets be fare to all souls and ourselves, more importantly ourselves so that we can be honest with others as well, lets live with our mistakes and rejoice with its achievements that could not dissociate from ourselves to be good humans. Let the sunrise and sunset be mine, let the pure and evil be mine, let the subtle wind and storm be mine so that there I could move ahead of the mirage and reach the waters in the desert in the walk of life, called life.

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Friday, October 9, 2009

I didn’t wish to have to end this way…..

I really didn’t mean it when things were going wrong you don’t have no idea till the time it has all gone wrong the only question is why? why, the logic becomes stronger than your heart, the truth is more fascinating, agreed, practical than what your heart says, you really don’t need to take decisions, when the world inside you is so contrast that you cannot decide what it is, this is what I have learnt, everything that falls into place, is not that all is true.

Things can just change over a phone call how stupid does it sound, but it is that true, relationships are broken over a phone, is this the optimum use of the technology we have??? Well leaving that aspect aside but how far and fast the heart can collide and explode at times if you really think, it’s funny, think about this, it is all over between us, and the phone clicks and here it goes everything off……amazing that it happens and amazingly people let it happen………relationships were not that important as it is now, friends were not needed as I am in need now, but also when I look back it looked like a same old story repeating itself “I didn’t have friends, I don’t have them and I would not have them in future” and this is how it would function until I change something……I wish I knew that way long back I would not have lost out on friends, I wish I know it today so that I can make at least new and keep them safe for the future…but times change and so do people around you.

We have heard that the time, words spend and spoken cannot turn back now I can completely understand what it means….it’s not that I never knew about it I did honestly I did, but I didn’t bother about it much….and the wheel has turned and here am I understand the meaning and depth of each single word out of the whole sentence, I always thought I had the power to turn around things, always in the mirage that people will turn back to me after a while. I had setbacks, which only made me think it would not happen again, but all the more I moved on with life all the more I realized I was in the state of illusion that I lived and as the dark clouds have gone by my head I see the world far more clear then I could see before I could understand that I have to take the responsibility of everything that is in and around concerning me and my life…..but I still never wanted it to end in this way, I wanted to live more of everybody around me I wanted to live more every bit of it which I miss, which I should have understood which I guess that it would take me time to understand a bit more….a bit more to understand, a bit more reach out the deepest feeling in ocean of feelings around me people have, a bit more to see that things are not always the way it looked, a bit more to see inside me to secrets known but unhidden treasured by weight of ego and social boundaries to be strong, by myself just to become something I don’t even know what when I was running for, when I have reached the point I was giving my life for…..but leaving every bit of it to be called life, but life is far more ahead of me as well and life would be if I would dare to live it, this time with more subtleness, with more patience, with more respect for myself and others, with more of life then worries, I would survive only for the good to happen to make things a more a bit I cherished it would be………but I still never wanted to end to all this, this way.

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