I miss your smile but I miss my own more…..

When you had to make me cry, why you made me laugh before, if you had to go away, why did you come close. I could not think of something more appropriate to start with, then this, cause I miss out people laughing with me, but what I do miss the most is smiling myself. I wish I was a child like again with no worries, more smiles, broken pencils could turn me down, but nothing known as broken hearts, where I used to smile 400 times more then what I do today(a fact an average child laughs 400 times more than an average adult) if you think even you have lost your smile somewhere in the crowd in the name of etiquettes, love, or you don’t even know but you know that you miss something go ahead, it for you.

When we were born, nobody taught us to cry, but we did, nobody taught us to laugh, but yes we did and did a lot freely without even knowing that toothless smile can also bring in smiles to others, but now that we know what is to weep and what is cheer, we hardly do either of them anymore or atleast max in the closed walls with no ears and no eyes, (so when we know what it is we stop doing it? no I would agree to it) weeping in front of people could make us look weak, could harm our so called projected personality so why we don’t shed a tear in front of others , (so you know why we know and still we don’t) when born, when lived childhood, we lived for ourselves and not only for others, now as grownups we live for others and hardly for ourselves, think about it this, you would love to eat the bread with your hands, but cause the person in front of you is using a knife you would do the same, why so, that you are not out casted, you are not somebody looked down upon(True, but deep within your thoughts, deep with yourself)

We smile according to people around, if you really understood a joke and you found it really worth laughing but you see people around and if they have smiles or laughs you continue or you just stop, irrespective you wanted to or not, I am not saying to have an un social behavior change into you, but what I am saying is that you keep you smile then to yourself but laugh out later, so that there is something that you can smile about and completed the smiles you are worth of, after a usual busy day.

Love plays an vital role, or rather viscous role to the smile, you smile not because you want to but to satisfy your partner who would just say you a turn off cause you did not smile, or make a pathetic working day worse in the evening by asking a million questions if you don’t laugh irrespective of you want to or don’t and same is when you cry, what are you doing living for others and not for yourself and then one fine day the person goes from your life then you take out all the baggage of smiles but then it has defoliated to cry, burst out with nothing much better then tears for you but water for others and then there is hunt for some shoulder again, why when the smile is yours so are your tears, the problem is cause you always shed or smiled for others even today you need others.(why you doing this to yourself why are you not living for own self)

“the world looks the way you perceive it” and all that you imagine is to live for others, it is not how you look but is how you perceive it and if you perceive happiness inside you would spread it outside, whereas if you perceive sorrow so would be the case, so be comfortable yourself, be happy yourself and then spread the word cause what you will feel from inside so what you will be spreading outside, be contented, satisfied inside and then you would be able to do it for others.

Smile the smiles for yourself and you would not miss them for anyone else.

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I wish I could die

I can’t think of anything else, anything better, it is what I am feeling right now, I don’t have grudges against anyone, I don’t have feelings to stand and fight for anyone anymore, I just fell I should, I should die……………………………

Powerful, flawless, trustworthy, betraying, hopeless statements, yes just statements, that makes us take such decision, the ego to prove the point, does not matter if it costs their lives, a lot of people say I want to die, cause they have not risen up in the morning to see the rising sun, but stood there at the dusk to see the sun set. Never helped anybody in life, when needed but cried all the time for not being helped, others land up saying all my life, all I have done is given up to somebody for something so I have nothing to give but to give my life, I have a question did you actually give or you just gave that you thought should be giving, it might be everything from your end but all that the other person needed was two good words to be said, then done, at time, did you do that ??? majority the answer is no, we just did what we felt should be done, without taking into consideration exactly what the other person needs and then saying I cant live anymore, I cant give anything else(boss all you have done is all you did, lost in your own world without trying get out of your cocoon but yes you want to die, so I would not complain much).

Another a very positive way of leading life try to die once and live life like an emperor always, what a life, I could say think again they would treat you like god n goddess but you are not even close to it, they would not make you unhappy out of love but would not do it either out of fear or guilt, you say you leading a life I would say leading a life on the empathy pieces thrown by others, to the extent, that would only fear them and you would laugh over their sheer love for you,(well I would not complain much cause you want to die, I would not give you that, what you are worth of).

It takes only 3 seconds before you decide do you really wana do it, think about it this way, you are standing at the top of heighted unconstructed building near the big window, suddenly something grips into your head and you jump, the result is obviously known, you would say this act is insane, those 3 seconds decides what is sane and what is insane, but by the people this insane act is done to prove that they are sane(but what’s the point you are dead), this is now a days the in thing probably, students facing difficulty to move ahead with the examination, mature people out of so called monetary issues, love birds just to prove their points, hell no you just proved your point but you are dead and now you cant do anything about it, my quest is why to waste your life, which is not worth anybody else could not deal, understand, attach or detach from you, hell no this is not what life is all about(well I would not pursue you much cause you wana die, obviously you think it will sort all the issues I would not say much to pity on you)

It is courageous to commit a suicide, cause you could see yourself and still beg for more, but it is all the more courageous to live it and live like nobody else could have thought for you, be there to see the sun rising rather then forgotten under eclipse of sunlight, you would not be remembered, you would not be thought about, you would not be what everybody thought once upon a time that you are, you would not get to live what you could have, if you were just alive.

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Is that is it all i could have asked for….

               It’s an amazing feeling a lot of us have surely felt it, didn’t ever at all you get to hear all the praises from the world(not close to you)  but when you enter the so called home(close to you), all you hear is “do you know anything or do you even understand anything or are you mad” well I am sure a lot of you would agree to what I am trying to say in cause it happens, the world may even appreciate you smallest deal or knowledge but your own people treat you not more then dogs on the street, hard words beg pardon my language but this how it makes one feel, this is how they try to make sarcastic comment and succeed, cause we lose hope, all that you could have made out of yourself to something better, but like stones on the mirror they break you into pieces, small, tiny you cant even see your face in so small pieces, if you have ever felt it or you agree to me I am sure this is going to interest you a lot.

            This is not about getting weak, this is not about sulking yourself into black hole, where light is ashamed to pass through, this is life and this is how you should take control over it, people(your so called own people) have crushed you, you were not flying but you were moving towards building something better and the wave just comes with worst tide, hit you and your castle whose base was just to be founded, now what? built another castle without worrying over the tides, come on!!! you did that a millions times before it does not solve the problem then, keep on reading.

             You were to tired and hopeless that all you think was to end your life, but pity you, been there but didn’t have the courage to do it, you hopeless creature (have you felt it if yes then I understand you what it is like) your best support in lives are only a show piece, but not even one which could increase the show inside your temple(mind here) but only bring in dirt and dampness in your life.

              N then you wana cry over it, think again the solution is not to stop building castles but next time be sure to built it, but not with sand with concrete, every time somebody lets you down, the people who say forgive them I say forget those people who say it, I say turn back to double charge and do whatever it takes to achieve a level a bit higher than you had achieved, let you criticism only bring you another person to know, respect, appreciate and enhance you emotional and to worldly pleasures (achievements) and any time you feel weak or tired of putting in the effort for your goal, remember each and everybody who said “you can’t do, do you even know anything or you just a nerd” and it would give you immense energy to concentrate and focus in life, people who quit n die, they proved nothing but those people right n how right they thought about you.

             Move ahead in life nobody is yours when you are looser, but the whole world would turn around to say a “hi” when you own the worldly pleasures, so do that, make it a point, don’t lose hopes, hopes are lost by people who do not intend to take control of their lives by themselves, live right now, feel right now and don’t let your hard work make you feel that it would pay back someday but one day n that is going to be today feel the heat, feel the power cause life could change in seconds, don’t you let that precious time go waste to think about the people who could just turn you off, show you your unworthiness cause life is war, so stop worrying about battles n yes it is difficult to live, but beggars should not try to be become choosers and if you have all your life thought about becoming a choosers, then stop behaving like an unfortunate, worthy less soul live it, face it and enjoy like nobody have ever done before, cause you are alive now and so is your happiness now until you choose it other way(sorrows, disgrace)  and so be yourself NOW.

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In Grieve In pain....

I had to write, there is nothing better I could have done, in grieve in pain...yes that is how it all falls apart, amazingly I remember in terms of spirituality "we are spiritual beings having human experiences" no matter how it sounds but trust me so it is true.

We have come here and then the conditioning of everything starts, right from our first breath to our last breath, in due course we come across small small little little things in life obviously the big ones as well, we were taught to relish essence our life, to respect, love, care, and the list to eons, then we grew up and everything was winning, career, money and to the eons, interestingly we picked up the latter groundings as the grounding in which the wonderful piece of art, the life was to be constructed, as there are two parts of the brain the outer brain called the dura matter and the inner part the pia matter, same is the carnation done with us, we have built ourselves to the materialistic virtues leaving behind the actual lessons we have come to have an humanly experience.

As we are here right now on this earth having human experience, obviously we are bound to attract ourselves with the earthly experiences, the dawn the dusk, the wealth the poverty, the angel the demon, the joy the pain, the love the hatred, now this is were everything comes to stand still, no matter how we are into our materialistic world someday or the other we feel cause we are humans, so human have feelings. Yes but the most beautiful, strongest of dams fall apart cause of a tiny brick which could not support it and there the dams follows in water which had the power to make it stand still, surprising yet true.

When we are in love, we feel immense joy,(just a great feeling) did you question yourself are you the worthy one of that joy(what kind of question is that) so I believe that you haven't asked it to yourself right, so why do we question when we are in pain, when somebody is not around, where every place, every song, every phone call you receive, every thing that you see, reminds of somebody, somebody you loved, cherished, accepted, bonded with(well that is going to happen because I was so much into it) so you accept it, all you looked forward was joy and you didn't have the time question yourself, then why when things fall apart your happiness goes to "elohim" of devils, why do you questing yourself for grieve for the pain. No I am not saying that you should not feel bad about it, what I am trying to ask you is was that somebody worth it. Think about it if everything you had, is given if everything that you could ,was done and still there is somebody who could not turn back and care for you, why are you in pain.

We would feel pain because it our mode of life where we are here to experience everything the good the bad, take it as a lesson and not the end of the book called "Life" a many get it, a few relish it but actually a few live it. You are here and so there are situations that are go na let you down, the situations can let you down but you cannot let down your life, the best learning are when we are weak, it might sound absurd but think about it, it is true the best learning happens when you are weak, cause the thrust in you to oppose has gone away, let your pain, your grieve be your strength, the strength towards positivity towards a new living, towards a better life, whatever has happened is past you can't change it, what ever will come, you would only know when you live it now, so build up your strength to live now, there is nothing that can change your past your pains, there is nothing that can change the future because you don't know, everything is right here right now.

Free yourselves from worries, which you have not faced(will face it, but not right now, so why think from now you will, but not now), free yourself of the trauma(which cannot be changed), free yourself from the mistakes you never made, live now as no tomorrow to happiness is now, the sulk feeling will follow cause after all we are spritual being having human experiences, the pain cannot shatter you, the pain has be the strength towards life in new positive way, mind you positive is the key word, it is the only way you can progress, it is easy to be negative but takes courage to be positive and always remember "Mind over matter" Mind has devastating as well enlightening power, it is in your hands which way to lead.

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Can Enlightenment bring in Loneliness

Can Enlightenment bring in loneliness the honest answer is yes to it, but if you believe in this myth I would suggest you read further before you could have a final say over it. Just a quick note before we move further Enlightenment can only be felt in solitude, I hope you have an idea now that what would be ahead of this….

What does loneliness means, the dictionary to me it says

Sadness resulting from being forsaken or abandoned or

A disposition toward being alone

OK now let’s try to define solitude, to me the dictionary says

The state of isolation.

So isn’t that both the things refer to almost same thing, I would suggest read between the lines, the difference can be best explained by a person winning a race and a person who earns a silver, but not gold, I am sure we all must have felt the same experience somewhere in our lives as well, that is the difference of being almost.

There was this book I was going through, in which there was a phrase referred from the bible “Go built our temple, build with no tools and making no noise”, if anyone had to make sense out of it, it’s simple is to go build a temple and spread the word of the religion, but my dear friend consider it with no tools, how would it be possible? So thoughtful, well it says later that “you are the temple of God” it means that urge is created to create temples of our minds. Scandalized !!! I thought so, let me put it across this way, we all have heard that “God is within us” still there are temples we go for, probably because we have taken the literal meaning of the knowledge passed through ages from our forefathers, now coming to the point the more that we have learnt the more I guess we have deviated from the path, the more have we made out the literal meanings of enormous banks of knowledge.

Do you agree that we are re inventing the inventions? I guess you would, everything that has been mentioned in our ages old literature had not the need to re invent anything, whereas we are in the phase of life still progressing and trying to invent, think about it this way, a person if from the 15^th century was suddenly to come here and have a look at us, won’t he feel that we are gods, well he would. cause we now own some knowledge that the people at that time frame did not, making us clearly gods, exactly the point is that we have god within us, now think about the people around you as gods so many of them “Elohim” so many of us, yet we have not been able to understand, what was passed by our forefathers.

Let us come back to enlightenment, as mentioned above enlightenment came from solitude, difficult to believe well think about it is this way, when you made your presence felt on this earth you were alone and the same applies when you leave, when you come here you are enlightened with light, air and a numerous other things, crying, nobody I guess can teach crying when the baby is born, so the enlightenment is there and it has happened in solitude, nobody has helped to it, but let’s move further he is a person and has attained material knowledge and material wealth and then he feels I am enlightened but also I am lonely, please wait then you have not enlightened yourself, because if you would been enlightened, you would have also agreed to detachment, detachment is to feel you and yourself. Whereas lonely is yourself and isolation is you.

Enlightenment is happening or enlightenment is yet to happen, when you feel enlightened you would also feel, the synchronicity between attachment and detachment, this is when you would also feel that I am enlightened but not lonely, I am enlightened but isolated.

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Occult destiny Part I

Occult Destiny Part I(just the starting)

Ok think about it you have something in mind, something that is there and you are still not satisfied something that is running through your brains, like vroom now that is something that happened, something that just went by, but what if, what if you cannot describe it, what if you are unable to make out, ignoring has helped but still not vanished that something just passes by, I can feel it, at times hear it, but I can’t make out of it, still confused yes, but I am not referring to the devil inside you right now, I am talking about the secret that you know and you believe that you know, what you cannot express it, cause you don’t have access to that secret, you still cannot make out what went by, yes you are missing the key to the secret.

Hidden fears and deep down scars to your heart, nothing that it matters, but something that you are not able to forgive yourself for…..lets think again….you are unable to sleep 3 am in the morning you have heard a hand trying to open your bedrooms door, you still wide awake as you could not sleep, you are sure that there was somebody at the door, you opened instead you not wanting to and still find nobody, empty space and for a second you feel the vacuum inside yourself, you can’t deny cause you heard it yourself….yes there was somebody, you are driving and you feel that there is an accident that is go na happen, you cross the road left a turn and you find an accident, now matter how fast you passed a vacuum inside is there, you feel that have a reason to be born, because there is reason for death, what if you are unable to justify the reason for your being…

Things that happen you think about a friend whom you had met years ago and suddenly you see that person in front of you synrodestiny, or co incidence I guess I have one more word to it occult destiny, the one mentioned before only give you a reason to think the one later also gives you a reason to feel, it gives you also the vacuum of your life, lets make it simpler.

What if you come to know what is going to happen this very movement (I am saying this very movement) like you get to know 2 seconds before you are going to get struck by lighting, yes your hair on hands and legs would stand till the end, but you are too late by the time you know it….why the unknown fears we have graved inside us not been taken out, which just make it more difficult to live and then the unknown happens you think it and it happens, but the problem is no matter how good you wana think that never comes up and whatever devil speak to you happens in front of your eyes, do you hold yourself responsible for it…or you forget it as a dream, occult destiny is still far but if you can feel the vacuum be sure that occult destiny is coming to you shortly keeping reading for knowing of occult destiny……

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Everything that you hear is not true....2012

It all started off with two friends and a movie 2012 where the movie says the world is go na end.....ok i am listening, well the movie was awesome no doubts about it, I mean after years probably some movie which was so close realisation that I could feel the shivers down my spine but obviously if you have seen it in English, cause the the hindi has practically screwed the movie(my friends told me that I was the smart one went for the English hahahaha), now after the one should watch, movie we moved and surely the topic was the movie and the end, just trying to put some points, please try to think about it(yes you can).

Starting with the calendar just to start of the conversation stating a few facts or known facts infront of you to get the grounding work done. The mayans calendar and what it is well here is the answer. The Mayans had a very precise understanding of our solar system's cycles and believed that these cycles coincided with our spiritual and collective consciousness. The most significant of which has much to do with the 2012 prophecies, Never mind that the date for Armageddon was originally set as December 24, 2011. We now know that these events will occur at exactly 11:11 GMT on December 21 2012. Those Mayans really knew everything about astronomy, since their calendar consisted of 260-day periods, which we now know represents the true length of the solar year! According to the Mayan calendar, the "Great Cycle" equates with 5,125.36 years, which began on August 11, 3114 B.C. and ends in 2012, (got the idea and now what is the calendar about).

Honestly I had been reading so much about the 2012 issue, I mean anybody can go crazy I am not denying and nor am I accepting it, it is an information sent to my mind which I have set it on hold(will check you later types) but just to brief you about a few things have a look (why not giving in the specific details boss cause it is all over the net and this is a blog) The Mayans prophesied that from 1999 we have 13 years to realize the changes in our conscious attitude to stray from the path of self-destruction and instead move onto a path that opens our consciousness to integrate us with all that exists. The Mayans discovered that every grand cycle has its minor cycles, that carry the same characteristics. One galactic day of 25,625 years is divided into five cycles of 5,125 years. The first cycle is the galactic morning. When our solar system is just coming out of the darkness to enter the light. The second cycle is the mid-day. When our solar system is closest to the central light. The third cycle is the afternoon. When our solar system begins to come out of the light. The fourth cycle is the late-night. When our solar system has entered its furthest cycle from the central light. And the fifth and last cycle is night before dawn. The Mayan prophecy tells us that in 1999, our solar system began to leave the end of the fifth cycle which started in 3113 B.C. and that we find ourselves in the morning of our galactic day, exiting darkness and on the verge of being in plain day of our central galaxy in 2012. They say that at the beginning and end of these cycles, which is to say, every 5,125 years, the central sun or light of the galaxy emits a ray of light so intense and so brilliant that it illuminates the entire universe. It is from this burst of light that all of the Suns and planets sync. The Mayans compare this burst to the pulse of the universe, beating once every 5,125 years. It is these pulses that mark the end of one cycle and the beginning of the next. Each pulse lasting 20 years, a Katún. (now now now I guess that is a lot of mayan story lets check the others as well).

Sun Storms
Solar experts from around the world monitoring the sun have made a startling discovery: our sun is in a bit of strife. The energy output of the sun is, like most things in nature, cyclic, and it's supposed to be in the middle of a period of relative stability. However, recent solar storms have been bombarding the Earth with so much radiation energy, it's been knocking out power grids and destroying satellites. This activity is predicted to get worse, and calculations suggest it'll reach its deadly peak sometime in 2012

The Atom Smasher
Scientists in Europe have been building the world's largest particle accelerator. Basically its a 27km tunnel designed to smash atoms together to find out what makes the Universe tick. However, the mega-gadget has caused serious concern, with some scientists suggesting that it's properly even a bad idea to turn it on in the first place. They're predicting all manner of deadly results, including mini black holes. So when this machine is fired up for its first serious experiment in 2012, the world could be crushed into a super-dense blob the size of a basketball.(As if a basketball size can change the shape of the earth)

The Bible says...
If having scientists warning us about the end of the world isn't bad enough,religious folks are getting in on the act aswell. Interpretations of the Christian Bible reveal that the date for Armageddon, the final battle between Good an Evil, has been set down for 2012. The I Ching, also known as the Chinese book of Changes, says the same thing, as do various sections of the Hindu teachings(I don’t which one states but....)

Super Volcano
Yellowstone National Park in the United States is famous for its thermal springs and Old Faithful geyser. The reason for this is simple - it's sitting on top of the world's biggest volcano, and geological experts are beginning to get nervous sweats. The Yellowstone volcano has a pattern of erupting every 650,000 years or so, and we're many years overdue for an explosion that will fill the atmosphere with ash, blocking the sun and plunging the Earth into a frozen winter that could last up to 15,000 years. The pressure under the Yellowstone is building steadily, and geologists have set 2012 as a likely date for the big bang.(didn’t the movie show the same thing ha)

The Physicists
This one's case of bog-simple maths mathematics. Physicists at Berekely Uni have been crunching the numbers. and they've determined that the Earth is well overdue for a major catastrophic event. Even worse, they're claiming their calculations prove, that we're all going to die, very soon - while also saying their prediction comes with a certainty of 99 percent- and 2012 just happens to be the best guess as to when it occurs.

Slip-Slop-Slap-BANG!
We all know the Earth is surrounded by a magnetic field that sheilds us from most of the sun's radiation. What you might not know is that the magnetic poles we call north and south have a nasty habit of swapping places every 750,000 years or so - and right now we're about 30,000 years overdue. Scientists have noted that the poles are drifting apart roughly 20-30kms each year, much faster than ever before, which points to a pole-shift being right around the corner. While the pole shift is underway, the magnetic field is disrupted and will eventually disappear, sometimes for up to 100 years. The result is enough UV outdoors to crisp your skin in seconds, killing everything it touches.(Dont you touch me)

Ok guys the world is go na End I agree, they are so many more things to tell you, that probably we would be reading till 21^st December 2012 what say...well the story has just began now...here it is some more...

Planet x which Nostradamus had named it as Nibiru, is going to be the cause of the end of the world, his past predictions have been accurate and made sense(so can this one) ok I really don’t deny all this cause few days back there was a comet the had blown off above the Indonesia sky which if would have exploded on the earth would have cause thrice the damage that was caused in Hiroshima Nagasaki (Japan). Incidentally the size was just 10mts what is the size is of a small planet say Pluto(bhoom).

Well lets look back at everything once again, the world is going to end, yes everything that has a start it surely does have an end without a doubt, the only thing is, is it in our lifetime or grandchildren’s grandchildren lives I don’t know and I guess it is better that we don’t know, but what is important is why don’t we live like today is the day that I need to live, why don’t we make up with everybody we lost out on our way cause probably we wont have the time later, why not we keep our ego aside and live life right now right today for the better living, the mayan calendar says that it will see from 1999 for 13years do we as humans behave and if not the destiny is all that matters, see i don’t what happens tomorrow, but this is also true that you can meet with accident tomorrow which can fatal, nobody knows so lets live with our best, the nature will show its colours because we have not even tried but we have changed, destroyed, invaded it so some day or the other it would, that is now inevitable it is just a matter of time now, what we have is at least lets behave like humans, so i have suggestion everything that we hear should not taken to the soul cause we had heard such calamities, prophecies computers crashing all that before also but here you and I are reading this, so lets live like humans.

Ok now that has been to senti and people have also made web sites to provide lotteries for survival wana know the site well it www.instituteforhumancontunity.org go check out have fun, but lets make for doings before it is too late cause my friend life is too short.

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