Demigod is....

Is it being supernal or being infernal of your own made up world? Well the dictionary says that demigod means a person who is part mortal and part god. How does it make a lot of difference between being me and me being a demigod? It is said that god lies in our hearts and obviously I am mortal. Am I a demigod? If I am than so is every other human being right. Well according to Greek mythology it is Hercules with an exception who was accepted to be a demigod, though born to only mortals. What made him one?

Is it the veneration to be one, well this is antiquity; but I am alive now, here in this world; who calls all this; a part of the ancient world. What spatial makes all the difference between me and him? Let’s try to understand in today’s world two contrast situations part a) wherein I think that I make things happen, I work so I run the house. I own this, so I see how it should be working. I do that and the list is ad infinitum. Part b) wherein now that I know the universe is so huge, the earth is so big, the stars are so far away I am just little thing on this planet called earth. I cannot change anything. What alone can I do about things? Global warming, society norms, pollution levels or is it me who makes things move? All the questions actually can bring you to a liminal stage, think yourself in a situation where the past does not exists is just a vacuum and future is a myth as it is you between a transition; between nothing and nothing it is got to be a trance.

Threshold is upon you. Can you really take the responsibility of this whole wide world on your weak shoulders? Or it is just that you think that you do, in reality there is nothing you can change about anything. Is being a demigod a pattern of dynasty or it that can be achieved? Who actually provides the patronage to my living? I am still not sure am I a demigod? Or it is the people who have made all the difference before in archaic times or it is we who make it all now. If it can be attained with veneration what I am I missing to be one? That does not mean I start walking on the path to hunt down the destiny or is it my destiny to be and to act like one. Honestly it is all upon and wholly upto you. What actually we need is to engrave within ourselves is the wisdom; to understand to what we can and what is upto him.

The sense of responsibility of me being here right now and playing the role of me being an actor in the world which is the audience; I am here to perform my bit of part to the whole play; and detachment from the role that could remind me it is all part of the play. Nothing that is here is go na hurt me if I could just remember it is a play. To put it more simply a demigod is only a part of him but not him. The flash of genius would be to strike the right chord; which is between knowing what is being a part of him and what is being him. Yes I make things move but I certainly don’t create it. Let not the actor you play a trickster with you.

Yes we have a chance to be preeminent. It is just that the antagonist within us have made us feel or forget that what we truly are. Let the chthonic within me rise to be chaste nay take over the impious me. We can change a lot; because Demigod is me

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How close am I to ME?

Who am I? What am me? Have we thought about it? Does it really matter? Aren’t these too many questions to think about? Just to recall your distinctively vivid memory which I am sure you have to the best of your knowledge. Remember saying “I am happy being me myself” or “I love to be me” or “it was not me it just happened....” or “are you talking to me?” or the list goes on and on..... I am sure you can remember at least one instance right? Alright even nay ‘cause I have never made such statement’ I am sure you know somebody who has ever made it? What is the essence? That there is something as ‘me’ and there is something as ‘i’ so? Read on I am sure something would catch your eyes.

So now we know that I and me are different right? Let’s move a bit forward let I be the ‘ego’ and me be the ‘real me’ I may be the one you project to the world whereas me being knowing yourself(the darkest side of you, obviously the brightest as well) I be what you think and me be what you feel. What was the last time; under no guidance of nescience you could differentiate between what you think and what you feel? “I think this is a bad deal but me feel; it is worth the try” or the fratricide has been committed without the personage allowed to speak. The world may or shall look at you as the way you want to show. I do its best to show “I am......” there is not an end, me is I wana feel paradise.

The caprice can be mercantile or quaint. We are so focused onto; with improving or accepting or dejecting the relations with the whole wide world (www) that at times or most; we forget there is still a sound within me that is ‘me’. I don’t want to get hurt, but we do. I don’t want to be rejected, we do. I don’t want to spoil this, we do. Defeat it inevitable, but battles lost also purports winning wars only if we continue to learn, improve and not come under the influence of ‘lost hopes’. I am bound by the ego, to deny the acceptance; me wants, because I thinks, it is not right. How do I overcome this tug of war? Me is not weak accept it, if the me is hurt, me has lost trust let me take control and avoid the circumstances I think would not happen again. Pitch black darkness shall dissociate you from your shadow, me shall not.

How much time do you take out to have a word with ‘me’ difficult to remember? It does not imply that you become biased and start listening to me, it is just that have ample opportunity to understand the difference, to choose to have a choice. Anything too close cannot be seen, anything to far cannot be understood, strike the balance. I shall do everything to please the people in the world; it would not be that difficult to please the one inside. Don’t get into the rat race of moving on in life, for example if the dustbin is not cleared everyday it starts to pile up, next starts to stink, next looks ugly than it was, next you just can’t bear it anymore. Similarly detach yourself from I, have no pre conceived notions then look at it, the view would be clear, peaceful and enlightening.

I and me make you, not either of them. Don’t be afraid to present your subtle thoughts to someone, before it becomes unconquerable peaks. Let go, if you want it come back to you, but not lose yourself and accept it whenever it comes back to you. Your best friend can be you, if you allow it to be; most trust worthy is you, if you accept to be; best shoulder is yours to cry upon. Don’t expect from the world, if you have doubts with yourself. Life is never fair; shall never be; be fair to you. Best teacher is the crowd, that makes you feel lonely, learn from it. Not lose hope within; there shall be no soul to support who does not want to support him. I and me is you and you are the creator of your own destiny for dynasty.

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Snow and I still love it......

Snow and snow around......may it be a reason for pain for many, I am sure we can find some pleasure as a few. We shall see what we want to, not necessarily what is it.

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Infernal calling paradise within.....

Ebon is the shade around! Not due the lack of amber; but because of the lost need to be chromatic. A lot is by force, but honestly it is more by choice. The invisible fences have taken over, without me realizing that I am no longer part of supernal but an infernal. The darkness has started pulling me and enlightenment making me feel midget. What have I done?

I am deaf to own self; wish I had the acoustic to hear my own self......but it seems to be late, it seems the little voice is not calling for me anymore, it is the something I miss, I can’t perform the nomenclature for it; but I miss this something, it made me happy, it made me remember people without requests, it.......is it still there? I wish to hear it again! Where is it? Still calling for me or succumbed beneath the masks saying ‘this is rational, this is where it is supposed to be, this is better, this if favourable, this is .......’.

Is it better to be lonely or alone in a crowd? I never wanted to be like this, but you know because of this I have become like this, because of this I am sceptical, Because Because Because!!! I don’t wana justify me anymore. The more I look outside for happiness, the more loneliness takes over inside me. I know it is an illusion, but how do I break the illusion to understand that happiness is enlightenment inside. There is nothing new in this, have heard it a zillion number of times, look inside for happiness, happiness is a feeling, love is neither adjustment or compromise, honesty would bring you peace. I agree! Can we also agree to disagree? That is; we both agree that we could, we would disagree. Then can the truth be changed, can the rising of the sun, called to be a mirage just because the clouds don’t allow you to see it.

Nobody talks rocket science, the most important things in life are basic, easy to differentiate like the difference between black and white. When it is that simple, why so difficult to find? We love to live our lives to the best, claiming to be fully satisfied and intended to be comfortable, with a small tag line below all this saying that ‘conditions apply’. The world made me a thorn and you expect me not to cause pain! It is always easy to pass the blame, what is difficult is to confront! That though I am a thorn I don’t want to add to somebody’s pain.

There is something new for the people talk about love these days it is the ‘caustic love’ it is like I don’t wana fall into to it because it may hurt. Firstly love is when people rise, it is when, and it strengthens them for the better today, tomorrow and a delightful yesterday. If it is decided with days, decided by time, decided by circumstances; it is anything but not love. Let the brawl inside you rise so that it bursts, because when the floods have searched their way back to the sea, they leave behind is a fertile land, no matter how destructive the volcano is, it leaves behind land to rebuilt and live.

Don’t let the small little voice be unheard within you, because the more you suppress the more claxon it sounds, until not heard at all. Ephemeral is we, too short span to keep the grudge, the weight is too much, let yourself be detached from the feelings, don’t forget the lesson, but don’t carry the feeling, degaussed to feel the feeling be a taboo. So that when coup de grace takes over me I have a life to see in a few moments left, it better be worth a watch.

Paradise is right here, don’t let the infernal take over you and disguise you with the absence of the sun.

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If you have pre notions.....the outcome is certain

Let’s start vague, if you have made up your mind that a person is knave, even if that person is not. It does not matter; to you, that person is knave right!!! But your comment, actually that person is knave, how do you know it? Think about it well before you answer. Alright let’s move forward to something concrete. It is not going to work out? You have made up your mind that it is not going to work out, irrespective of one billionth of the possibility! “you have made up your mind”. The outcome is set; it is not going to happen! I remember a few lines I always keep referring to from ‘the alchemist’ “If you wish something from the bottom of your heart, the whole world shall conspire to make it happen” it will! Or it will? If you wish it from the bottom of your heart. Let’s still move a step ahead, what tells you it won’t; isn’t it your brains? Most of the things that are so important are not things and when they are so vital in your life they are from your heart, eureka!

With reference to my previous blogs, I had received a mail long and interesting enough to take an hour actually to understand and revert, finally with the threads of mail I asked one simple question? What do you want? The answer was surprising to me, we want to stay together BUT because of the milieu and stage we are at in our careers; we can’t, so we would have to forget each other!!! I said you have already decided ‘that is it!!!!’ the outcome is already set, that you are going to post your names in the list of people who have achieved martyrdom! ‘But’ is unnoticed increased exposure towards the dusk to never see the dawn again, mind it. I do not say go against and fight for anything you feel like. Just for heaven sake think about it, the same details you recalling now and going through again and again were the same details then as well!?.......if you did not think before, don’t think too much before giving your best and the last shot now as well.

Another amazing apt case I would like to share with you, a boy and girl had no problems, could have happily married without a hassle, but the girl would always come up with an question “You would never leave me and go na?” constantly all the time, out of the blue. Without actual grounds and reasonable reasons eerie are built up and those people broke up, mind it after 4 long years. Whenever there is something special, either you trust or you don’t, it is nothing like 99% whenever things are not cent percent, trust me it is like buying yourself a credit card, all this is for free but read between the lines it says conditions apply.

Try writing on a black board, alright let’s become “mod” the white board, when there are already a million things scribbled over it, you write in some more how easy are you making it to read? Actually no it shall mess all the more. Exactly when you have already decided; ‘exactly’ what to do about an unknown circumstances, unknown facts, unknown human being; you have already locked the doors! Amazing saying “Experience mars experience” if you don’t clean the board before scribbling, it will be a mess and if you don’t write anymore it is no more learning.

“There is no possibility”, people do come up with such bold statements, let me bring across a few milestones, centuries back, earth was flat! Somebody called it oval and got killed, poor Galileo. The poet’s imaginations that love birds would be able to talk miles apart, he would see her here and she would see him there, impossible centuries ago, mobile phones we call it today! There is only one thing which is not dynamic and that is the change itself.

Frailty is not a crime, but lessons learn it. Caprice are sudden, experience it. Heresy is not uncommon; just don’t push it too hard. Holocaust shall happen; if your stakes are with the wrong person. Infernal is nobody but only the person who showed you the gateway to paradise and never took you across. Marred would be there if things were superficial, hearts would be broken if things were just not things. A miracle happens to those who believe in it. Don’t judge too quickly, because there is always your side my side and right side.

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How close is too close and distances apart

Simple as it may be to read, difficult as to answer; common as known to everybody, subjective as a feeling unknown to anybody else. Let’s try to answer this how close is too close? For a person, for a thing, for a want; what says "this is the limit"?

Let try an example before we start taking sides, blame games, it’s the only option; kind of things. You are travelling in a taxi in the rear seat, the love of your life sitting next to you, leaving no distance, even for the air to breath, would you mind that? Generally people would not. Another example you travelling in a crowded bus, there person next to you is like an inch away still you feel uncomfortable? Yes.  One more example you been taunted, by person A you feel offended, the same thing, same tempo everything same the person B says, you don’t mind at all. Being close is a feeling.

We decide what is close and what is not, nobody else can come up and speak for you, it is a feeling borne by only you; because nobody can feel what you can, it is a part of you. You meet somebody and you can discuss your life, like discussing a book; you know somebody from ages, but a simple question where are you up to? Can make you feel like confronting to that person. Is the distance between people to be counted in miles and light years or millimetres and vacuum? It was impossible a few centuries ago to see something happening away from your eyes, we call it television today. We believe so much at times that, this is what I can see, so ought to be the truth, the truth is what you see and what has happened has a difference though of nanoseconds but does exist. The truth may be stranger than fiction.

Being close is like everything else filled with options, you want to be or you don’t want to be. What affects your decision of being close? At times it is more of people around you that decide how close is too close rather than you deciding for yourself. Adding to that are the notions bombarded by these external factors which help you miserably to believe in your own want and apt distance to be close. You meet people everyday some you like, whereas there are a few, who have done nothing wrong but still, you don’t feel comfortable or stay away. It is always easier to run away; difficult to face it; and more difficult to explain to yourself when discriminating that now you are running away or now you are facing it.

Suddenly then this new idea pops up “I need time” is time the deciding factor or the declining factor. There is no surety and no guarantee of anything to be honest, there is only one thing that is constant and unchangeable that is the change itself. Don’t let people over rule you. Don’t turn away from your own feelings. Distance in humans are not measured in miles, they are measured with the distance between their hearts. I do not mean just jump into anything, anytime. It is just that you decide; what is close! What is too close! Or what is the distance apart! Trust yourself before, you trust others, fall in love with yourself, before falling in love with others, decide for yourself, before others deciding for others. No matter who decides what, it is you who shall face it. Take the responsibility to call it your own life.

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Though there is something, you were better......

Missing!!! What people, things, life, yourself? What next? Give them a call, cyber stock them, try to buy yourself some peace; shopping does any help? Temporary yes it does then what next do step 2 again....and it continues. What is that you wanted to be? Was it this exactly what you are into? Is this the best you know? Or still those lonely pair of eyes who are only accompanied by themselves are still searching for more? A high rise building under construction, look at it!!! What’s great? Thought about how cool it would be standing up there? Feeling the breeze and fresh air away from the noises, seems a good idea. Go ahead and do it, standing on the edge, try to feel any of the above mentioned, can you? You would be worried about if you fall? How deep is it? I shouldn’t have tried it. Moral a few things are good and at its best when at a distance.

Irresistible caprice to get things done the other way, to change the view of the world, get somebody back. Could be something like standing on edge of the high rise construction building’s edge; couldn’t be? Lets try the other way, I miss your smile but more than that I miss my own more. Life is not fair, it never said it would be, but few things are always better unknown or be gracious if you have the power to face the truth. What is this all leading to? Lets try another way, whatever you did was not wrong, but it is not what I wanted!!!! So confused how do I get about this? The deal is; did you ever get any of these question? Still makes you uneasy? Now we talking on the same lines.

What do I do? It is irresistible to let go. Its good to be a kid at heart but think about it; always? It is irresistible cause you don’t have anything else. Tomorrow you get yourself a new fad, new toy, just bloody something new. You have forgotten about it until reminded. Was this the same thing you couldn’t let go first? What would have happened if you would have got it back? Would have destructed back again, trust me cause you got it back. Would take it for a ride and then again I am sure I can get it back, just got to try a bit more harder this time. Still a level ahead it would not go anywhere, even if I don’t try. Would be right there, waiting for me; its gone!!! Catastrophe

Colossal as it may seem, conundrum as it is; the only thing, wish or person important is understood completely is when you have lost that thing, shattered hidden wish or person. No, not after a fight or something, not after an argument that is not losing, that are the thick and thins that make it worth living it with. Not the intermediate failures before success.  It is when you see the in the eyes of the person, that you have lost! It is when you see yourself in the mirror and think this is not worth it! This is not what I want anymore! Not a word, you just know it when it is over. You have to make a grave decision at times then i.e. you are good but the I guess I have to forget you(desires, things, people).

Though there is something, you were better far off.

Make sure you have done every bit possible, all the efforts. Cause it is easy to give up, easier to forget more easier to move on, but the feeling you have lost it will stay for a life time. Don’t give up, don’t ever until it is not even your last day but your last breath. Keep going, you are go na do good.

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I'm Surprised

Abrade is my joy, when rationality is seen around to its best. Friendship, love, relations are ad hominem. Fusillade, it seems when a few speak. All I am if not anything else, is I’m surprised!!! Funny things happen and pariah you are if done out of concern. Cold is the weather and now so is my soul. Everything has a meaning, a reason to happen I have got mine as well, but I’m surprised!!!

Penchant I had for my feelings, where I wanted the world to look, the way I wanted to see. It is all different now, this is the learning. Remember saying this all the time, there is your side, my side and the right side. I can see the right side working for me. The illusions that the world looks beautiful cause I see has changed to the beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. I’m surprised!!!

There is nothing new, nobody can really re invent the wheel, and I cannot. It is not something that never heard before, never passed my mind or something I never knew. It is just that, it is different to hear it when from someone else and different to see when it is you. It has enlightened the way to unknown destination, or the one right there, but hidden under the banner of ignorance is bliss. I’m surprised!!!

Wondering what is this all about? Why is this all about? Is this exactly what I am reading? Actually there can be lot of deviation between what I may be speaking to you. Abysmally amazing that it is only 30% mind it only 30% of the verbal communication that is understood by the other person, the rest is non verbal communication. All we had been trying to do all our lives was to speak well. Between this is not the point, the point is sudden changes have occurred, making me judgemental forgetting the point, that there is nothing right and nothing wrong, what? Exactly just mere circumstances and the decisions in the given situations. There is no happiness and there is no sorrow, just that simple do you want to keep love or grudge in your heart, had forgotten all this. I’m surprised!!!

Whenever we try to be something that we are not, judgements start following us, factual as it may seem true as I believe, when you start trying to judge others, you have lost the knack of judging your own self. Learning new, understanding new, improving according to your own standards and changing because it just the way it is to be done, has a very fine indifference to be understood. It was just what was mentioned above, life seems to be complex, asks us really weird questions, happiness and sorrow start taking over. Everybody seems to be good or bad at different time. Things went according to me good if not as Russell Peters has said a million time “Somebody is go na get hurt real bad” wow!!! How things change within us and we cry the life is unfair. Why? Because we just forget the two colours of life, black and white, try to mix and match, forgetting the fact it can only make it grey. Colours are to be seen and not to be made up. I had forgotten all this I’m surprised!!!

People are different and so is their ideology, so what? Have I given up on my own, little things for a good tomorrow, don’t worry about the future, you can only see it when it is present. Don’t worry about the past; there is nothing you can do to change. Live in the present in such a way, that past seems to be blissful and future looks like the rising sun. Don’t suppress what you feel, not to be said aloud to the world, but to be felt within and not to forget to feel the feeling. Different people care and appreciate different things, be different and appreciate people than only expecting to be appreciated. I had forgotten all this I’m surprised!!!!

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Growth is inevitable.....

There is a cry you get to hear all the time. “I want to grow.....” amazing may it sound, abysmal it may look but the fact is that growth is happening, happening all the time even right now when you reading this. Before we could come near to growth, another closely related term is perception. Just an example, there is a friend of mine. Let’s call him A, A told me that 10 years ago his friend B had asked him to start joint venture for retail products. A could have managed to start off with B, which was not an issue for him. But he did not, now B is very well established, doing really good in life, A claims now, that if I would have joined the venture then I would have been in a better place than I am today. Fair enough, not a problem. Let’s consider the same situation in a different angel. If B would not have done good and could not, so called “Progress in life” than this same A would have been telling me, that it was my good luck or brains or whatever that I did not join him, otherwise I would have lost the money in the venture.

A great man had said “Beauty is in the eyes in the beholder” another great saying is “You shall only see, what you want to” irrespective of what the fact is. This is how perception is, you see what you want to. Getting back to growth, I am sure you can understand by now that growth is a perception. The way you want to see it and what you term as growth is upto you. Canonized we stand for our life, for the good, for battles won, for achievements we receive. Deplore we stand for our mistakes, our shortcomings. Blame it on the errata of God for anything that we think is not growth.

Stages if could say, existence, grow, is growing, grownups. Growth is happening, happening now.....when we breath, with each breath we are growing closure to death. If material world is the growth, the day we are not making money, it is the growth towards the debt. If you say, you not doing a single thing even for an hour, I would like to recall that is the growth inside your body of reducing energy. You cannot return to the time spent. You cannot stop your growth. What is there is the way you want to grow. Don’t go by what people say, it is their job to do that. If you do a felony or a logjam of prosperity, people would talk about you. When acoustical you become to the resounds by the people. Growth would be you and what you believe growth is.

Heresy it is to grow for the betterment for a whole. Growth is happening, is going to happen and cannot be stopped to happen; the deal is how you look at it. When it is inevitable, why not to grow as you want to, rather than hearing as you should be, striving as they believe, you should be, giving up yourself for what they think, you should be. If you have to grow, grow with respect, with grace or with money. But trust me there is nobody who can stop your growth. Nobody asks for doing sins, they do ask for forgiveness. Nobody asks for death, they do ask for life. Nobody asks for pain, they do ask for relief. Nobody asks to be poor, they do ask for wealth. Once you are sure what growth is? and you know what you want from life? as rightly stated in “the alchemist” “When a person desires something from the bottom of his heart, the whole world conspires to make it happen” be sure of what you want, cause it is going to happen.

When nemesis is on its way, there would be seconds before, the whole life you lived would be flashed. Make it worth watching.

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Them n They….

Firstly I am sorry for taking such a long break from writing trust me it was really hard on me as well.

I have landed to the first world, London city. Them and they really have a subtle difference or not at all to a few, but I felt the difference and thought to be shared. When we are they, we always look forward for becoming them. When we could not break the ice to become them we try to get submerged into they completely. Without giving a second thought, that once I wanted to become them. Let me put it to you again. We always want to become something else then what we are, we try and try to become somethingl, if we fail to do it, we become anti matter to it, considered you believe it to be matter.

What has happened? What is this all about? Well to be honest to express it, words fall short to describe. I hope you would all agree to me that feelings are best felt and not explained. A person would learn to drive only when he is on the wheel and not any way else possible. This is a feeling that I felt and felt and felt again only not to understand what it was. There is a difference between them and they, you just can’t become them because you want to or act or think, that by doing this you may land up becoming them, no it does not happen. They is what you don’t want to be, not because you can’t, because there is some indifference you wana make. Not sure of the indifference itself though, but it has to be something.

Misplaced identity crisis, how does that sound wired? Well so it be. So many thought just running my brains without making me reach to something concrete, something to be partial about. Then I wondered why I want to be either of them. The logic was waiting for it’s turn to come forward and say it aloud “Cause human being is a social animal” it always want’s to fit into some place fit into a shelter of comfort. The question is, is that wrong? No there is nothing right and nothing wrong will get back to it some other time. To find a shelter for your comfort zone is benign. Bewitched are we to find the difference between them and they, you would stop feeling it when you stop being they. I would repeat it for you, it is that we are so much stuck, clinging to be they, that we cannot accept them. We all want things to be our way, nothing wrong with that, but the point is, so does them.

It is easy to blame, difficult to accept the deficiency. It is easy to find out problems, difficult to find real solutions. It is easy to be them, difficult to understand that them are they as well. A walk down the street late in the night chilled breeze flowing through the ears, can send shivers or can give you a high. The perception would change only when you look it differently. The most important point here is what do you think for yourself. If you are a good human being it would come to surface. Them and they would not be able to stop you for long. If you are human, them and they would take you as in their stride. If and if only you are what you are, without being a pain to someone, you shall and you will overcome the difference between them and they.

Trust yourself, be the best you can be, do the best to your capability, keeping in mind the larger goal and not to fulfill the demons selfish desires and the world shall bow to you with respect and acceptance. Wait no soul, to tell you to wake up. Wait no foul, to ask for apologies. Wait no end, to ask for a start. Wait no good, to ask for appreciation. Wait no to die, to ask for your life back.

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Free will or destiny what can I change….

Let me make a few statements, your call, your point of view is completely justified. Your “Free Will” shall lead you to your “Destiny” and “Destiny” can be changed with your “Free Will”, “Destiny” is capricious, does it sound logical? I will be able to understand that, if the statement makes you feel like wayfarer. I guess you may agree, that we have made ourselves acclimatized to get used to, with the circumstances or let’s put it again, we have get accustomed to compromise, with the small little talk. To bring it to surface, we had when we were young, we were true to ourselves. Now, we let the small talk have the careened walk, which would not interrupt the selfish self. The small talk has disappeared in between the claxon all around us.  What is this got to do with “Free Will”?

Let’s take an example: you are sitting in a restaurant, the food was ordered. The “Daal” was not that great, you yelled at the waiter, that was the first thing you did. He went in changed in the dish brought it back to you. Now it was cold, so you yelled back and poor guy rushed in, you derisive him, for no fault of his. He goes back, while coming from the kitchen and your table, he simply spits in it!!! Your enjoy the meal, completely satisfied with what you have got. Would you have eaten, it if you would know actually, what happened between the kitchen and your table. Let’s move ahead, the drinks were high on you, after splendid dinner you start driving carelessly, cops pull you back. They could smell the liquor, you had a few arguments, the cops take you the police station. You yell out big names, curse the whole system. Somehow you manage to get out of the station, start driving back again, a open man hole appears, not realizing, you take your car over it. Now the car is damaged, the tyre is stuck. Your curse everything and everybody around it. Now you blame the whole issue as if errata written by god, called destiny. Is it your destiny? Didn’t you have alternative solutions right from the starting point to have a completely peaceful, pleasant night. Think about it? 

A few may question, what the waiter did, is that what should be accepted? I would say surely no, but that is not in your hands, one, secondly, he is using a “free will” in a similar fashion as you did. To spoil to the whole issue, he is building his own destiny, which would pay back, or if you have seen it, act as a bank and pay off his cheque, then and there(get him fired). Here also people would not do anything, cause first, it is not my business, secondly it is not my serving(forget it). But if it happened to you, you want the whole wide world, to say how much correct you are. Another question I drive slow and safe, still it had to be with me. Well two things, happen when people get into trouble they try to pull in whatever they get. The only way is to safeguard yourself, but in depth you would understand that, you did have the free will. How? Most of the times the soft little talk we avoid helps us to avoid hapless acts, avoiding to become hapless victims. If we would have just heard it.

Let’s put things back again, we start acting contrarians against our own self. To survive the logic, which would, reconcile with your destiny. You are the creator, of majority, I would not say all, but majority of the things, that happen to you. What is the rest, well that is your “karma” I wish to make another statement, hope you would agree to it. “As you sow, so shall you reap”, probably you may not remember it, it is not that happened in this sojourn, but some other sojourn. No man wants to be a sordid, the world may compel him to be. No man wants to be a perils, the world may compel him to be. I may recollect, we have become accustomed to blame the milieu, that we cannot take charge, forget for others, not even for ourselves. I agree the pressure in front of you, may be not even close, the frailty you may have to face. But let me bring forward some beautiful words I had read “When god solves your problems you will have faith in his abilities. When he does not solve your problems it means he has faith in your abilities.” It is a test that you have to pass with excellence, cause if not appeared for the test today, it would come back to you, there is no running away from it. It might, come only in a more crucial manner, if any less. 

The point here to remember is, you have had to act tough, you may have acted close to nemesis, to save your own self, justified. But what is important is to stay aloof from being bewitched with this act, again and again and again. You may reach the height of being acquired with all the power in the universe, it would be nothing more than an illusion, a myth that would lead you to being nothing more than a demented self.

 

It is important to save yourself, from getting harmed from some other person who could desolate you, for whom you have a disdain. But it is more important to save yourself from the habit of being saver of yourself in the name of being vindictive. It is in our hands. Would you pass any examination without studying? Would you reach well to your destination, without driving cautiously? Would you do any good to others, if you have a thief, or a false motive in your head? Think about it, there is a lot of things that “he” has empowered in us, use it to your liberty, it is your choice, be here as a friend or a fiend, but blame less to the world and more to yourself, suddenly this place would become a better place to live, not only for you but for everybody around you TRY IT, shall not cost you much.

E=mc2

“Albert Einstein” that is the first thing that came into your head, well yes he proposed this formula for energy and mass, well the interesting part is that he was not the one who started the study of it, but surely, the one to come up with a formula. So why are we discussing E=mc²? Well this time the thing we are talking about is energy within!!! surprised well I could not help now a days people only believe what they see, what makes sense, which has logic behind it. The amazing fact is people only see what they wana see. I hope you would agree to that. If there is something conceived through visceral incidents. It cannot be! Oh! I am not sure, let that be as it is. To this extent our formal education has induced in us, the power of proof.

The issue is not this. There was a time, the earth was flat that was the truth. Today the earth is oval in shape is the truth, has earth really changed it’s shape? Anything more than the density of air could not fly was the truth. Aero planes are surely heavy than that, is the truth. Did air actually became that heavy? Obviously the answer is that truth remains, what changes it the perception. Coming back to the E=mc² E is for energy, M is for mass and C is for the speed of light in vacuum*, so far so good? Good to know that, well this formula does not give us the origin of the energy. So came the statement “Energy cannot be created nor destroyed and energy in all forms has mass”*. Similarly “Mass cannot be created nor destroyed and in all forms has energy”*.

Oh my god that is like we cannot create energy, but we have it, we are walking, talking moving about, dancing, understanding. We have energy cause without that nothing can be moved right! You here with me till now. Ok the energy is coming from the sun, to the plants, to our kitchens into out stomach and we dance about. Something more before we hit the road “If either mass or energy disappears from a system it will always be found that both have simply moved to another place”*. Ok one more thing surely the last we shall again summarize it later. “Whenever any type of energy is removed from a system the mass associated with energy is also removed, and the system therefore losses mass”*. This is called mass defect. Simply to put in words. When we drive all the fuel is not combusted an amount turns into heat, deposits in the form of carbon, etc. This amount of fuel can be called as mass defect. The wastage during the transformation from one form to another.

What this all leads to? Well first, the energy is constant, it is just that over a period of years like millions of years, we have just come to know, how to convert it from one form into another. Agree. The total amount of energy is an unknown figure. So we basically all have energies. Ok then let’s move forward, the same nuclear energy is used to make the electricity and if I not wrong the same is used to make annihilation bombs? What are we doing about it? Have we just let the engine on in our lives to burn out the fuel, or are we actually driving every new city to see the wonders available in this world, waiting for us only to be appreciated? If the former is yes, why you doing that? If the later is yes, you know the world and pain is all plan and part of the game. There are problems, what we need to do it, let’s not multiply them. Just because roses are beautiful, they would not start growing up without thorns.

Let us together try to look at the pros and not only the cons. The energy is wasted to a non useable form even when you fight, also when you start working on the solutions. The energy is also utilized to make somebody drown and also to give a hand and help the person to stand on the feet. The energy is also required to break up relations and also to live up to them. We are using it all the time, it is ubiquitous, Why not use it as palliatives rather than creating sarcophagus? I remember a very beautiful line I had read in The Alchemist “When you really want something from the bottom of your heart, the whole world would conspire to make it happen” So be sure what you want, cause that is what going to come to us. We are energy, let it flow in the direction to reach to glory than the direction to reach destruction. The day we want to we will start living in a better place. Not because it is somewhere else, the power within us would make it happen here itself. 
* source www.wikipedia.org

Rains affect visibility. Let it not stop you to reach to glory!!!!

            Ubiquitous the drops of water may seem, right there and there and here and everywhere just a few minutes back it was not there. Now it is everywhere. Let’s understand rains synonyms to feelings like anger, hate, awkward, ego, jealousy, so on and so forth, keeping in mind the negative ones, that hover the air of our brainy head, leaving no space, to land the signs of  “positivism”. Think about anger for a black cloud that is just out to burst, you were having a quarrel, you have lost your patience and the anger bursts, the dark cloud has busted, now the visibility is decreasing, the rains are taking over, the quarrel is not close to an end, because of the decrease in the visibility, you are losing it so much now. The weather is getting turbulent, as the quarrel is not stopping and you are unable to see, another dark cloud comes up “ego”, now cause there is more to pour in, the different charges show their presence, behaving as the role model for lighting, it strikes. The visibility is minifying, the lighting is striking just round the corner nearing you. You are afraid and frightened to lose it all, you really don’t want to fall apart, “how could you do that?” the ego asks. Forgetting the actual path and misguided by the lighting. The demons flare of light coerces you to led astray from your path, you had started walking.  

            The speed of the walk has decreased, the accusative endings are moving apart, the distance increasing as the poles. The bright pathway that we started walking, the road to acceptability, to a common goal as a whole, has washed away, with dark clouds and lighting. The immediate solution is better understood to run inside, search for the shelter and wait for the rains to clear. You do that and there is sun peeping out from the clouds after sometime. You actually thinking it is a point of escape? You move out only leaving the trails of running away, rather than enjoying the sun. Then round the corner, the sun is taken over by the clouds. Awestruck to yourself, you thought it was all over. The rains are slouching you with pain right in the face this time. You don’t know, either to run or to stay back and face it. After a few successions of experiences, hidden in the hiding shelters, all you think is to stay back and fight.  Why you want to fight back? The billionaire question. Well because you are damp inside to the core. The walk to home was not you looked forward for and the destination has lost it’s path. You face it making all the wrong moves. The shelters you opted before, were not the best ones. As rightly said “There are no free lunches” those shelters were by fiends and not by friends. There is something that they have taken away from you. Your morality and ethics are put to task at times, You know this is not what I walked into the shelter for? But you in debt to the temporary shelter you have been taking in, while running in the rains.

            You could bring this all to an end, but sun seems to be brightly shinning only in the fiend’s shelter. You are confused, you are guilty of being in those shelters, you want an easy path, you don’t know how to go back home and set things straight. You start turning from being a tree to the world, to be a parasite dependent of some other tree. Self confidence is shattered by assuming the humiliation you would face. All building up for the tornado. The clouds are densely populated not, all the negative forces start acting. Why all this is happening? This is not I wanted even if I didn’t knew what I wanted? This is not for sure. Stuck in your own vicious circle. The more you remain, the more your strength is taken over by demons telekinesis. You have to break free yourself and it is only you who can do it. If you need the shadow of the trees they are to be planted, nurtured, brought to life also by you to expect the shadow. The neighboring shadow can never be yours. As your soul cannot be into someone’s else’s body.

            What really the rains are for then? The first time it starts it’s a drizzle. It is phenomenon that will happen, cause it is the part of the nature. Understand the fact you cannot just cannot change the nature. You need to hold hand together look towards the sky and welcome it with open heart. Let it make you damp to the core but you don’t let the person fall apart. It is when the rains are heavy, leaving you with muddy grounds, you walk to the rivulets only to make the boats sail. Rejoice together for the accomplishments made together and not fighting individuality. You might feel low, apart broken, aloof if you struggle the rains alone, but being together, the same things will come to you as togetherness, company and faith to survive. Also to put it simply,  understand the fact that the rains would occur. You believing it not to happen, is a belief and when the belief is opposed, you bring in the rains. Also understand First what you belief is that true? Secondly you are just a small negligible part of the world which can be ignored. You are here to play a role, why spoiling it with your own hands, by fighting for the coverage to the whole play. If you have to even come close to juxtaposition to something valuable you have to accept the others too. Thirdly is it for the whole? or myth to the whole but for your own? When you keep these things in mind the rains would only pour in as a sign of acceptability and a welcome to unending happiness.

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I so wished to be a black hole until.....

The rays of the sun could not penetrate the black hole and giving nothing in return to the observer and then it happened to me, the gravitational collapse(Gravitational collapse occurs when an object's internal pressure is insufficient to resist the object's own gravity.*) occurred. The fuel inside me was not enough to keep up the inflicting temperature in me. What is it? it is like you wished and all you wished was to be an ideal, in the inkling eye to be a sparkle, struck by lighting and revived only abysmally. Only to understand that the ideal has changed. It is dynamic, till yesterday conquering this stage was being ideal. Now when today I stand on the conquered peak(the ideal), the ideal has changed, but it would have been alright, if it would have been only higher and far-off. It was something that I had not thought about. A new road is shown where I haven't started but the ideal lies there and not here(the one I conquered).

Occult as it may seem, true as it is. Amidst I feel between the world I left and the world I will be struggling. Cause the world I left, I passed as a trespasser and the one ahead it not known. I would have done it with great zeal only if I had known this was the last one, I would not have trespassed it, but lived it to the core, but the ideal kept on changing. Anachronisms is what I feel for myself, only stumped to the beauty of the changing ideal. The seance happened, all I was longing for. Enlightened me, I understood that striving for perfection may not peace my soul, as the perfection is moral force, but striving for excellence would make me grow and peace came to my soul.


How could I just let this pass me? I had seen it only, not to realize the existence of it in my life. I had been given an opportunity to relish the world, all I did was to trespass. Only to achieve perfection, orthogonal it all seemed to me. The success can also be achieved by enjoying the path on which I walked, reaching at the top is surely success, cause you don't turn back to see where did you come from? only the next unconquered terrain. I grumbled about the mis happenings that happened, the incredulity I faced, the faith that I possessed was shattered into zillion broken pieces. I asked for help I was lurched, A guide to me happened, and I asked to know only the truth. How many times do you trust a person? grinning smile is all that guide could give me to let me know the answer "again". I asked number of times, the sagacious guide could only tell me "again". I understood and lead the way with a open mind. Only to understand that past does not only give you memories but also led astray feelings cling to your soul. I was offered to establish the company and I understood the meaning "again" cause there was a part of soul in me, which never allowed the heresy to take over and religion I followed was "not trusting".

The word "again" meant detachment, which till then was only a word but the sense seem to follow. It is the difference between me and myself, me is by the ego and myself is the actual. I heard the small talk suddenly whispering to me, the one I had ignored. The one, which when heard after time unknown made me scared. It is was the small talk I had forgotten about. The inner voice, I was jolted but senses turned back. I had a chit chat not for long and not aloud but within me. I found my lost company I had been longing, the thorns on the path only seemed thorns, but the beauty surrounding the thorns looked mesmerizing. Detached I felt within and attached I grew outside. The gravitational collapse was not a feeling anymore, the black hole was not I was looking for. The black hole emits more than it has, that is what makes the gravitational collapse. Not early though I would say that I came to know, but what I know that there is still a lot more inside me before I fall prey to the ad infinitum depth. I shall survive. The world would not change in a day, nor Rome was built in a day, but now  I know I exist and there is change probably not in the world, but the way I look at it.

* Gravitational collapse (courtesy www.wikipedia.org)

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Success seemed to be on going and lonely, the path made me feel.

Love…..

Love is there or love is not there. It is as simple as Black or White and whenever we try to complicate love and try to make it gray trust me it not love. It is either adjustment or compromise, adjustment if the other person loves you and compromise if you love the other person but it not what love is.

There is a very thin line between love and infatuation, though thin but the distance is poles apart. Love is ad infinitum, infatuation comes with an expiry date. Love would never ever make you feel bereft, adverbs, adjectives, personifications, climax, metaphors nothing can explain love, cause either it is there or it is not there. You can only feel it, logics give you strength but heart only falls in love.

What happens when you are in Love?

A multi millionaire question apostles who understood it relished it all their lives, rest remained in the state called love but not love. I am sure you would have met many people in your life, probably just like the newspapers read every-day. You read the news everyday but do you even remember it after like two hours, try it, trust me you would not remember even the title of the articles you read, but you could remember a story that you had read days or months ago. How? That is the whole thing, there are people who we like and whom we don’t. It is there, that is what makes you remember them. You meet the person for the first time and you feel so comfortable with that person as if the person is known to you since archaic. Then there are others, even when they have not done anything wrong you just wana escape. I am sure you would have experienced this.

Language is I believe a very raw form of communication (what?) I can explain, love between friends is called love, love between couples is called love and love between family is also called love, what my point is at times language i.e. speaking out love is not enough, probably it is not enough to express your feelings cause feelings are felt and not spoken. Love is something that you need to make the other person feel, than brag about it. It is caprice yes it is a sudden desire and your second mind tells you all the time that this is “the person”, but we are so used to ignoring the poor chap, that even the strongest feelings of being in love with someone is suppressed and we move on to all the wrong infatuations, flings, heart broken relationships and stuff goes on and on and on.

Ok so how do we go about it? First thing is simple when in love you feel for the person. When in love conversations are not like ok what more do I talk? Is there anything else to talk about? I have told you everything right from my dinner, brushing up my teeth, my day how it was? No it is multitudinous feeling where time runs and things don’t end, it is not stupid conversation but conversation that does not make sense but take all the time away from your life and are very important. The person does not look hot or hunk. The person looks, warm or comfortable. When you touch the other person it not only brings down shivers down the spine, but it brings in that enliven feeling of togetherness. You just cannot stop holding hands, rains are not splashes of water anymore they are the droplets from heaven coming in as a blessing for being together and you just walk into the rain to feel it. You would touch the hands and wish never to let it go away, once you start touching it you begin to feel addictive to touch more, you just cannot stop holding each other. The words would not come out but the silence would make the other person understand it completely, appease the person. The sacrilegious feelings are taken over by sagacious you.

The warmth of the breath is still a distance felt, but only to comfort you and make the presence felt. People don’t fall in love but they rise in love, cause suddenly you start observing things around you, the colour of the trees, the romantic songs played on the radio. People who cannot stop being together, it is like a medicine for example you have to take a medicine every-day, so instead of only being reminded for it, you yourself take it cause you don’t wana miss a movement of your life that could have been spent together. Love makes you rise in life, no matter how turbulent the hurricane has been in your life, that one person would just stand by you and say, “I am here right here with you” and suddenly you would feel the rays of the sun coming from somewhere touching you in most subtle way and give you the strength to rise again. This is the power of love, it would make a king trusty for water and would make a commoner, the man of honour just if you have felt the true love. Trust yourself, trust the love and it does wonders above the world, dead is brought to live, darkness is shadowed with sunlight, the demons leaves and the angel takes over. This is what happens in love.

True love would exonerate your soul, would not limit to heart, body and brains, but would be present in your mind as the true companion, which is like the air you breath no matter how much you exhale you cannot stay without inhaling it again. When in love you don’t cheat not because you cannot or what would happen? It is because there is no one who would touch the soul to which the person did, you may not cheat that would be the muzak that would be played in your head, heart and soul. Being together would not be being physically together, cause love does not make you impractical or immature, but it surely shows you the path to walk, to attain glory, helps you to play the role in life on earth, which we all have to play by the virtue of being human beings. Love is comfortable it is like a shelter, a shelter which makes you forget all your worries, make you believe of being loved, feel the way you feel, where no problems would last more than seconds, where being in the arms of the person could bring peace to your darkest secrets, where eons would just pass by looking into the eyes of the person. This is love.

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